Stilettos and Diapers: Lincoln James: A Birth Story

9.24.2015

Lincoln James: A Birth Story

I'll be honest and tell you that I've hesitated to write Lincoln's birth story. I feel bad saying that, but I think it's mostly because it's not exactly the story I wanted. The outcome is perfect, recovery is going great, but the actual birth? Not that awesome. But, I'll tell you anyway, because I tell y'all everything! 

There was no crazy long labor like with Cooper, no in the middle of labor spray tanning like with Callan, but just enough drama to fit in, I guess. 
Lincoln James Birth Story: Stilettos and Diapers

Friday, September 4, I was scheduled for my c-section at 7:15am. I got up crazy early to be at the hospital by 5am. I was a hot mess on the way. I was so disappointed that I hadn't gone into labor earlier and that I wasn't going to be able to try for a natural birth. There was absolutely a sense of excitement about it being Lincoln's birthday, but I was really nervous about this c-section. 

For those of you who don't know, I had a spinal fusion when I was 15 for scoliosis. This means that the vertebra in my spine from my neck to waist are all fused together with metal rods. What that means for a c-section, is that it's very difficult to put in the spinal block that makes you numb for surgery. Luckily, they had success finding a unfused area in my previous births and we had gotten the paperwork from the anesthesiologists that had worked on me before. It should be easy, if they just went in the same spot that had worked before, but I was still very nervous. 
Lincoln James Birth Story: Stilettos and Diapers

We got into the prep room around 5:15am, where I changed and we sat. And sat. The waiting was not fun! We filled out all the papers and signed my life away. Had a minute to see the doctors and then off we went. They told us we couldn't bring a camera into the OR and I was so sad that we couldn't get those first pictures of our sweet babe! The Hubs had to stay in the recovery room and wait for me to get the anesthesia and be all prepped for the surgery. 

Walking into the OR, I was literally shaking from being so scared. Or maybe it was because it's freezing in there. I remember taking some deep breaths, praying for peace and telling myself that I was about to meet my baby. I grabbed onto a nurses hands while they attempted the spinal block. And I say attempted, because that's what happened for what felt like an eternity. After I felt the needle go in 3 or 4 times, I knew they weren't finding the spot. I could feel the needle scraping the bone in my spine and when I told them, no one said anything back to me. After I asked what was happening a couple times, my Doctor came right over in front of me. I said to her "it's not working, is it?" she said "no, but we're taking our time. It's okay." I felt my heart sink. I didn't want to go under general anesthesia and miss those first sweet cries. A couple more attempts and they decided to move low, under my fusion. This meant that I would be numb much lower and feel more in my torso. There were a couple tries there before I felt a weird jolt down my right leg. They took the needle out and back in for an 8th time, then success. 8 times getting a huge needle in my spine and mercy, I felt it for days after. 

Once I was numb and laying down on the table, I felt like crap. I told them I was going to get sick a few times and they put a little basin by my mouth. Not feeling anything and having your arms tied down makes it hard to puke, fyi. But after that, all the bright lights turned into one, big white blob and I was down for the count. Not sure for how long, but I really thought I was heading to heaven. It was a weird feeling. When I woke up, I could smell smelling salts and my Doctor was telling everyone that I was "coming to". I'm just glad The Hubs wasn't in there because he would have lost it, I'm sure. 

After that, The Hubs was able to finally come in. I was really relieved to see him and they started the surgery. I've always felt pressure during my c-sections, but this time it hurt. Like, I could feel a lot. I guess it's because they had to do the spinal block so much lower? But it wasn't comfy. 

After about 20 minutes, I heard that sweet cry all of us mommy's are longing to hear, no matter how you deliver your baby. So much relief is held in those tiny baby cries. They lifted my little man up so I could see him and I couldn't believe how small he was! Not that he was a tiny baby, just so tiny for my babies. 

7lbs 3oz, 21". My little Lincoln James was born and was mine. 
Lincoln James Birth Story: Stilettos and Diapers

We were in recovery awhile, where we snuggled, cried, stared at the newest member of our family and thanked God everyone was safe and sound. It felt like I had been up a whole day, but it was really only 8am. 
Lincoln James Birth Story: Stilettos and Diapers

My mom brought Cooper and Callan to the hospital around lunchtime and it was pure magic watching them meet their baby brother. They were so sweet, holding and kissing him. Cooper, especially, was completely smitten and wanted to stay the night at the hospital with me. They both have been amazing big brothers already! 
Lincoln James Birth Story: Stilettos and Diapers


Lincoln James Birth Story: Stilettos and Diapers



After telling you all about how terrified my surgery was, I can say that my recovery has been really great. My whole torso was super bruised after I got home and my belly button is still a bit black and blue. Not sure why I had that this time and not the others, but that was literally the only post surgery problem. I feel almost back to normal and it's been less than 3 weeks. 

I spent so much time before Lincoln's birth stressing about going into labor, attempting a vbac and having another c-section. Now, even though it was a scary experience, I could care less that my "perfect" plans didn't work out. I have my sweet baby in my arms (literally right now as I one hand type) and my heart feels so full. I was blessed to deliver a healthy baby and grateful for technology that was there to assist when my body just wasn't doing it's thing. 

It's been almost 3 weeks and I'm loving this mom of 3 thing. Sure I feel pulled in many directions right now, but every way I turn, I feel loved. There's something so special about how a boy loves his mom and I'm so excited I get 3 times the fun!

15 comments:

  1. I can't imagine going through what you went through! I'm so glad he arrived safe and sound, and that you're feeling so great at 3 weeks postpartum! You're a rockstar. And he's gorgeous. Congratulations! ♡

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  2. Awwww. That sounds tough but you are such a trooper Molly and am glad recovery is going well. He is beautiful! You will be an amazing mom of three. Your boys are lucky to have you. <3

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  3. Congratulations, so happy it all went well even with the hiccups. He is beautiful. I too, had 3 c-sections and it is crazy scary. It took me forever to heal the third time tho. Your family is just precious!

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    1. Thanks! I am feeling the forever healing…it's hard to not move around all the time with 2 bigger ones, right?!

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  4. Congratulations, he is such a cutie!

    Also, I had no idea you had a spinal fusion from scoliosis, but I do, too. I had mine done when I was 16 after wearing a brace for a few years. During my pregnancies, the doctors were slightly concerned there might be difficulties if I had an epidural. I didn't end up getting one, but I did wonder about how that might work out. My third (and final!) baby is 5-1/5 months now, so I guess I won't be finding out for myself!

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    1. Oh, wow! I wore a brace for a couple years, too. It wasn't fun! Be glad you didn't have to have an epidural. It's just nerve wracking when they're messing around with your spine!

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  5. Beautiful boy! Thank you very much for sharing his birth story! My daughter had a spinal fusion at age 17, and we've often wondered what pregnancy and delivery would look like for her. I appreciate having some sense of what she may go through.

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    1. She will be fine! It can be scary, but the doctors seem well equipped with proper knowledge in advance. And if she doesn't have to have a c-section, I can't imagine it would be an issue. I've had no problem during pregnancies!

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  6. Birth can be so strange when it doesn't go "as planned." My birth did not go quite as planned either, and my only plan was to avoid a c-section if at all possible... Well I had the c-section but the experience wasn't great and I still have a little soft spot in my heart I guess because I was in tears reading your story. :) Of course all we want are healthy babies so we are blessed... but that doesn't mean we have to love the way it happened. :)

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    1. That was my original plan, too! So funny. But yes, I just am grateful for my healthy babies!

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  7. Congratulations on the birth of your sweet boy! It's nice to hear you're recovering so well. Here's hoping you find your new groove soon! ♥♥♥

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  8. Belated congratulations to you and your family on your new addition to the family!

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