Earrings are from Maurices like forever ago.
I had to show the back because I just won a Strap Perfect from April at dot...dot...dot... and I love it! It is really amazing. I have worn it a ton and don't know what I did without it! Thanks April! (Ignore again the shirt tucked into the pants. That is lovely, huh?)
I am happy with my life. I am genuinely happy being a wife and a mommy. It is what I always wanted to be. I feel incredibly blessed that I can be home with Cooper. I sound very ungrateful even writing this, but sometimes I just feel like the old me is missing. What is my identity now other than mom? I feel as if someone else has taken residence in my body. I loose my temper way easier. I am not as sweet as I used to be. I try to, but I am just on edge. I used to be incredibly patient...yeah, so not that anymore. I don't know if there is much of anything from the "real" me left. I worry about letting my husband down because I am not the girl he married.
I love seeing Cooper learn new things and grow up every day, but those days just meld into one another. I go nonstop and get nothing done. How does that happen? I can go days without feeling like I got anything accomplished. When the hubby travels, it is even worse. I talk to my family and friends on the phone, but face to face adult conversation is rare.
I have thought a little about getting a job. I am a nurse, so it would be pretty easy. I would just do it on the weekend. Maybe even one a month. I mentioned it to the hubby and he didn't seem too excited. I would be giving up time with him then, too. I just don't know if it is worth it. We don't see each other as much as I would like as it is, and finding quality time once you have kids is no easy task.
I feel jealous of the hubs job. He went through training living with 7 other people for 3 months. His company has alot of young people that he gets along great with. Although they are not in the area and don't work together on a daily basis, he goes to conferences and talks to them alot. He spent the week in Chicago for a work conference last week. Hearing about everything they did and all the people that he likes, it makes me feel like I am missing out. I suddenly want to go through training and work for him. Haha. Granted, his job is stressful, and I am the one that sees that end of things. I guess the grass is always greener.
I just don't want to loose the good things about me. I know I have good and bad characteristics, but I feel like in all of this new found stress, the good ones are MIA. How do I get back to where I was while still fitting in my "new" life? How am I defined other than, Molly, Cooper's mom? I am living a life I always wanted, but feel I have lost myself in the process. Now what?
Also a reminder that this time next week, I will be here!
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After that, we went to the movies. Who knew that movie theaters on Monday nights were practically empty? It was just us and high school students there. Forget feeling like a grown up, I felt straight up old. We saw The Hangover and it was hysterical. (Warning, if you are easily offended, don't see the movie.) My date didn't get me home until midnight! Oh, then I let him in. And I slept with him. Does that make me a whore? Nope. My date was the hubs. Thats right. I have not been out alone with him since Cooper was born. Really, really sad. You can't just leave your kid with anyone these days! Thanks to my sis who is here visiting who kept Cooper so we could go out. It totally felt like when we were first dating, and is something that needs to happen on a regular basis. Needless to say, we will be looking for a sitter very soon!
I don't think any of you can disagree that these are freakin' adorable.
We did get a few pics, though. Whit and Cooper in front of the Ladies.
Me and my walking man going up hill.
And sliding down. And yelling for Whitney to come get Cooper. (Don't wear adorable silver flats up a slippery hill.)
And I am stealing your stuff.
And I will balance on this moving toy until you have a heart attack.
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This week is all about re cooping. The hubs is off to Chicago for work and Whit and I are going to do alot of this.
We started off this morning with Panera and our second over 1 hour trip to Target. I am loving having a partner in crime here with me!
On another (and more important) note, Cooper is walking! He loves to walk holding our hands and constantly wants to get down now. It is super awesome while he is squirming to get down while I am climbing 3 flights of stairs. The most he has done himself is 6 or 7 steps in a row. Our neighbors keep hearing spontaneous burst of cheering and clapping. I think they love it. Ha! The best is when Cooper grins huge and claps for himself when he is done. Adorable. Then he throws a plate of ketchup covered hot dog on the floor and flashes that same grin. Thank you, my sweet one!
Forever 21 $14.50
Fab Braid Strap Maxi Dress
DKNY Jeans Floral Print Jersey Maxi Dress
Ruffle Tube Maxi Trim
Michael Kors Sweetheart-Neckline Strapless Textured Dress
Forever 21 $27.80
Stud Trim Maxi Dress
So now that I have typed that more times than I am comfortable with, I am going to find out where it came from. Who came up with it? Maybe it is so you can be nice and comfy while wearing a maxi. (The dress and the pad) Eww. That was too far. Seriously, sorry. Well, not enough to hold backspace for an entire sentence.
This is Casey, the oldest. She is a Real Estate Agent. As she is in real life.
This is Whitney. She is baking cakes and serving food. As she does in real life.
This is Shelby (herself). She is a Vet. As she will be in real life.
This is me. What am I supposed to be? Stay at home mom? Nope.
Thats right. America's Next Top Model. As I am in real life.